I'm not sure if you've ever found a notebook that you haven't seen in a year, but I recommend flipping through it. Especially if you used to doodle in it. Every other page had some random doodle of Nero on it. Or Weiss. Sometimes Axel would show up in a schoolgirl uniform. Also wrote up some god-awful poetry, back in the day, but the sestina I wrote in my "WeissxNero is lurve" phase isn't too bad. I'll need to check it over.

Bri is coming over in about three hours and we're making Creme de Menthe brownies for the Aikido club. Wooo..

I've discovered that the cream my mom gave me for acne is, in fact, not supposed to be applied all over the face, but only to the point where the zit is. My face feels like a lizard's because I didn't quite comrehend that until AFTER my skin dried out. Urgh..

I played Clint Eastwood on drums today. All the way through. >:3 I feel sooo very badass. I might play some more bass tabs before I sleep tonight because we're going back to New York tomorrow. With cookies. Chocolate chip cookies. Hee hee hee, Weiss. <3

There were doodles of him in my notebook too. Quite bizarre. I still can't draw him. And snippets of fanfictions. A bit of "Edit Before Submitting" is in there. If I had a scanner, I'd just upload half of what I'm talking about. The other half would remain locked away in that poor notebook forever.
I can't wait to get back to school. My PS2 is there. It's been calling me since I got here. It's all, "Meg... Meg... Come play some Dirge. You know you wanna hear Nero's sexy voice some more." And I'm like, "Yes, I know, but Nero's sexy voice can be easily accessed online. The feeling of 'HomuhGawdyes!' that I get from killing bad guys in Odin Sphere cannot." And Nero slinks back and accepts that, because he's awesome and Nero and he has Weiss and Shelke in the back of my mind anyway. So, yeah, I want the PS2 so that I can molest Odin Sphere.
I'm sort of tempted to bring FFX back to college with me. I mean, I never played it all the way through and, from the "Whaddya mean you didn't play all of it?" testimonies I'm getting, it sounds really good. Ditto FF12, which I just kinda went, "Okay whatever," to and never really paid attention to it. So I'll probably do that too.
In addition to all this, I have a bunch of papers to write up, so it looks like Final Fantasy is gonna hafta wait. *Sigh* But it would be so CATHARTIC to just shove a Psypher up the arse of some random dragon-thing instead of writing about how capoeira is a highly influential African continuism and what I learned from a Calculus project.

So, readingchick and I were having a good conversation online and she mentioned rather off-handedly that Rosso would seduce Weiss. After a bit, she goes, "Well, he'd be around 19. He's not going to say no." I had my fingers poised on the homekeys to refute this claim when I realized that I can't refute the claim. He would hit it with her. And he HAS been hitting it with her, in my head, since readingchick put the idea in my head. They stopped for my wtf-dream, which I'll expand on later, but started up within three minutes of my waking up. He ought to be calling a doctor for that erection at this point.

My dream was insane. I was going to classes and I forgot whether or not I had scheduled a therapy appointment during that time. Well, as I was running around the Science Hall, looking for my backpack, I suddenly became Zexion and had a rather giant Vexen yelling at me. By the time I got out, I had become myself again and there was a van to an asylum on the corner.

... ROSSO, STOP DOING THAT ALREADY!!! JESUS CHRIST!!!

Also, I've decided that I should be grateful for the information we're given on Weiss. We know nothing about Argent. How old is she? How tall? All the information we have on Weiss is lacking with Argent.

Just got back from BJ's with a huge amount of stuff to take back to my dorm. Mostly food, but I got more shampoo, conditioner and soap while I was there. Glee. I also saw Bri her mom and her mom's mom just leaving. You know it's an awesome day when you see your girlfriend went you didn't expect to.

I'm working on a special surprise in Torch and I'm hoping to get another chapter of Matchstick up as a Christmas present. :D

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ROSSOCUTITOUTOHMYGAWDNEROMAKETHEMSTOP!!!!

(EDIT: I just saw a WeissxRosso fanart on Deviantart. *whimper*)

I forget when I was last on here. I think I was saying something about some characterization fail two days ago or so. Maybe three...

Anyway, I'm home for the holidays. Aside from the traditional, "Oh good Lord, look at all those flaws" fits that my mother has been having whenever I walk into the room, life is good. Just finished a huge Thanksgiving dinner. It was delicious. :D My parents gave me wine and I have come to the conclusion that Nero would look really good in a red turtleneck. Just sayin'...

My dad has confirmed for me that the Rock Band version of Clint Eastwood is wrong. It's FIVE notes, as opposed to two drawn out ones. I win. :D

Spent a fantastic last night with Bri. We didn't discuss Dirge much, which made me twelve different kinds of sad, but we contemplated the origins of "Rock It." We decided that they all got absolutely loaded, wrote out the song and recorded it when they got to the depressed state, at which 2D yelled, "Le's just sing the fuggin' song 'n ge' i' ovah wif!" They all woke up the next morning with bitchin' hangovers and a shiny new demo sitting on the table. XD

Also, I'm wondering about AU Shelke, Nero and Weiss would be doing in this sort of "Hang out with your family situation."

It's amazing. Two sentences of badfic sent me scurrying for Livejournal.

It was a simple thing, really. I was on TVTropes, looking up Nightmare Fuel so that I could stay awake through Chemistry (I have it in 3 hours and twenty minutes) (Also, if you have time, find the Nightmare Fuel for Disneyland. There is some CREEPY stuff there. Read it in a dark room, surrounded by dark characters on light posters. Vincent Valentine has rarely scared me more. Ditto Gorillaz and Tifa). Well, after that, I started wondering, "I wonder if there's any Hamlet Nightmare Fuel" so I went and had a look. There isn't any, but that didn't stop me from reading the rest of the article and I came across the term, "The Ophelia."


It reminded me of a fic I had read ages ago. It was an "Abuse me, Weiss!"Nero with an "Abuse is love!"Weiss. I wanted to see if I could get through it. I got through the first two sentences before I came crawling back here. My sleep-deprived eyes simply refuse to deal with Nero acting like this at this hour.

Yes, Nero is astoundingly tragic. Yes, he is fifty-MILLION types of sad and depressing, starting with his eyes and ending with his restraints. That does NOT make him The Woobie. Sure, Nero could be runner-up for the saddest character in all of Dirge (in the running with Shelke, Vincent and, what the hell, Weiss and Lucrecia) but that doesn't mean my baby is a wuss. He's tragic, but he has a void that will EAT YOU. OM NOM NOM.

On the subject of shoddy characterization, my Weiss is a powerful man and I love him for it. I love the fact that he gets his power STRICTLY from mako and J-cells and I love the fact that he's charismatic (read as: sexy) enough to lead an entire army against three rather powerful men. I'm also in love because he's capable of taking one for the team. However, just because my man (as much of "my man" as someone like him could ever be) is a charismatic leader, he is not a sadistic creep who BEATS NERO WITH VARIOUS IMPLEMENTS. And even if he IS a sadistic creep who beats people with various implements, he sure as hell won't take it out on NERO, his adorableadored brother who never did anything to harm his "niisan."

In short, Jesus H. Cox, guys, I haven't slept in over 20 hours, and I still know that Nero isn't a little girl. I have, however, forgotten basic math.

(PS: RC, I think I found the authoress you were telling me about. Er... I didn't read it, but I saw the summary and went, "That's the one, isn't it? Oh man..." )

Just some letters;

Dear Uterus,

I appreciate the fact that you have to shed once a month and I appreciate the fact that you do so with admirable gusto. However, just this once, since I'm going back to see Bri in a few days, do you think you could call it quits early? I'd really appreciate it. I really would.

Some love,

~ A.H.

Dear Beyond Birthday, Noodle and Final Fantasy IX minigames,

Please stop invading my dreams dears. Thinking that the campus cafeteria will lead me to a rainbow in the sky where I can find ice cream, then being unceremoniously plunked into a rec room, playing the same video game with my parents present and bouncing off the walls when the console inexplicably appears on the ceiling is not cool. And B, I don't know what the hell you were doing there. I do love you, about as much as I love Nero, but please don't engage in that kind of activity with me in my dreams.

Much love,

~ A.H.

Dear Livejournal,

Lets hope this cut works.

( Pics )

In other news:
* RC and I discussed a new dynamic that deserves to be played with in Matchstick. :D
* I'm going home on Tuesday. On one hand, huzzah, I'm going back home to my own room, to Bri and to familiar locations. On the other hand, boo, I have to stay in the house for a majority of the time, I'm bleeding out of my uterus and I have to be around my parents for most of the time.
* I've got something special in mind for the next installment of Torch. Stay tuned for that. :D

( Shiplist )

There's a New Moon preparty tonight after Aikido. In a fit of masochism, I'm considering attending...

Let me put that in bold, underline it, italicize it and blow it up a bit.

I AM CONSIDERING GOING TO A TWILIGHT PARTY!!!

What the hell, what the hell?!?

EDIT: Bri has talked me out of it, saying that Nero would not approve. Approval of a fictional man > Sociological studies of other fandoms.

Dear Livejournal,

I am officially no longer allowed to read 52 jaw-droppingly awesome pages of fic spam while talking about Dirge with readingchick and quaterzaz directly before bed because I have jaw-droppingly awesome Shelkero dreams that I don't even remember the next morning.

~ A.H.

On a side note, FF.net and I are buddies again and "My Life Is Average" went up this morning on my ff.net profile. Woo! Argent wasn't on the selectable characters list though (Booo...) so I've just labelled it under Weiss' name until eff-eff-dot-net gets around to fixing that, which might be fairly quickly (I sent them an e-mail about the AntiSora not being selectable and it was up in the next week, so...).

Whilst playing Tetris and talking with quaterzaz, I saw that Rilo Kiley's "NeroJenny, You're Barely Alive" could be deemed as a Tsviet song. After that, I refined my opinion to WeissNeroShelke because it's my OT3. I decided to explicate my thoughts on that.

I solemnly swear to leave 95% of my fanon outside the LJ cut.

( My Explication Brings All The SOLDIERS to the Yard )

And we've decided:

* Weiss totally owns a siamese cat because he can carry on conversations with it, they look like him and they kind of have this regal thing about them.

* Nero has a fluffy persian "Villain Cat" (think Mr. Bigglesworth) because it reminds him of Weiss. Aforementioned cat is extremely lazy and needs to be FORCED from someone's lap (Shelke inclusive).

* Azul has allergies to cats.

I just found Bri's Mom on Facebook. :DDDD

I'm getting paid tomorrow!! Putting some of it away so that I can rock the house when I go home for Thanksgiving (12 more days and counting), but the money is good for buying food and stuff.

So, I'm scrapping my current NaNo for a new plot. Probably fatal, but this one is so much more interesting. Will keep you posted.

My God, I need to learn to stop sitting with people at lunch. My companions for it were griping about how deficiencies in people shouldn't be quantified because everyone else has deficiencies too. When I explained the fact that magnitude plays a role in the line between deficiency and disorder, I was informed, "But that's not fair."
...
We're college students. I think that the "Life isn't fair" argument should have sunk in a few years ago.
And anyway, if someone is pretty much blind, I'd like that to be quantified and the person to be alerted to their blindness so that I don't designate them as the sober driver in the near future.

So I'm starting to discover that I really like "The Lonely Island" as a band. Their songs are ridiculous, but as long as you don't listen to them expecting lyrical genius, then they're generally funny. The current endeavor of mine and my roommate's is to memorize the lyrics of "Like a Boss."

Another chapter of Torch is going up tomorrow and, with NaNo on my plate, all my other projects are on multiple backburners, including Matchstick, My Life is Average, Why Is It So Dark In Here, and all my one-shots.

This is your brain :-)
This is your brain on my schedule: D:

By the end of this week, I have to: 
Derive a shitload of formulas out of some obscenely high numbers for a calculus project about the Health Care Bill. I could do the project in about two words, but I don't think, "Who cares?" on a sheet of lined paper would get me a stellar mark.
Understand the finer points of implicit differentiation.
Comprehend covalent bonds well enough to pass my exam next week.
Complete my Chemistry lab report, which requires Dr. Olsen to e-mail me about a question I had. Considering his classroom style, not likely to happen soon.
Write up journals about the presentations given to me in Founders.
Be on my toes for a quiz in HST.
Select a topic for a paper in HST.
Write a response to Debra Dickerson's "An American Story." I'm considering the essay, really, but the song-writing option would be so much more fun.
Draft a letter to the President of the college, offering my FYE group's donation to her inaugeration (or something) and how happy we were to give it to her. Also, we have to describe what we did for the sake of the donation. Since we had just seen Urinetown: The Musical, we were required to pay 5 cents whenever we use the bathroom. While this project wasn't required, Tess is treating it like it is and I've got two people telling me that it was coercion and, therefore, illegal.

Ahhhhhhhhhh...... Breathe... Breathe... Breathe...

I may have found relative proof that Nero definitely knew Hojo was pulling Weiss' strings.

Shelke: Who is she?
Nero: Dr. Lucrecia Crescent.
Shelke: So I am to collect the data files-- the fragments she left within
the network?
Nero: Correct. Then you are to use that data to find the Protomateria.
Nero: That is where he requires your assistance.
Shelke: He...?

I'll need to watch a Japanese clip of this to be certain that he's not referring to Weiss, but it sounds like Nero is talking about Hojo. Therefore, Nero knows that Hojo is involved and, since Hojo's data fragments are floating around either the WWN or Weiss' body, this means that Hojo must have spoken to Nero either via Weiss' body or over a computer terminal.

The only question now is when exactly did Hojo posess Weiss? In the game, he says, "When the network was restored, the scattered data regrouped and I was reborn." So, assuming that when Hojo says, "reborn," he means that his data was placed in Weiss' head, whenever the network was restored is when Weiss got posessed.

The timeline on TheLifestream.net states that the Tsviets took over DeepGround in late 2007 and that some time in January of next year was when Meteorfall occurred, Hojo's body disappeared and all the good, wholesome stuff that happens in the very first cutscene. So, therefore, it stands to reason that Weiss has been posessed for the remainder of Final Fantasy VII and the entirety of Advent Children.

I feel quite accomplished, and pleased with the fact that, while I typed all of that, I looked like a hard-working student at my campus library. :D

(NaNoWriMo count: 1,233/50,000. Loooooooong way to go. )

Okay, so I don't exactly like Yuffietine. It's a normal thing: A lot of people don't. But, for God's sake, why must all the VinFa be written so badly? 

Yes, that's VinFa. As in Vincent and Tifa. It's not improbable. Now Vincent and Cait Sith (which I've read at least once, in a moment of "I wonder if this exists...") is improbable. Vincent and Reeve is totally plausible and so VincentxTifa lurks somewhere between VinxCait and VinxReeve. I understand that it's a case of, "Lets pair the two sexiest protagonists together!!!!" but at least they've spoken.

That is all.

Actually, no, that is not all.

HAPPY HALLOWEEN GUYS!!!

(Also, Happy Birthday to L and Noodle from Death Note and Gorillaz respectively.)

(Edit: Sugar-high Vincent Valentine and OOC Denzel. SUGAR-HIGH VINCENT VALENTINE AND OOC DENZEL!! OH SWEET MERCIFUL BADFIC!! *crawls pathetically towards Tsviet drabbles.)

Friend: *putting up with my Nero fangirlism* Okay, sweetie.
Me: Seriously. *Totally not serious* We're gonna get married and have babies.
Friend: Ow...
Me: What? What's ow? 
Friend: Well, if they came out all pointy like that...
Me: *takes me a minute* ... Oh, that's the result of a surgery...

XDDDD

So... Nero... Very popular character, considering he has more fics tagged with his name than Weiss does (*fume*).

Guys, why is it popular to put him in a schoolgirl uniform!?! Just now, I think I saw him about 6 different times in a schoolgirl outfit. WHHHYYYYYY!!!!????!!!!???

Weiss can duplicate himself.

WEISS CAN DUPLICATE HIMSELF.

Me: Oh my God, how many do you think he can make? 
Roommate: How many does he need? *suggestive tone* 
Me: Bow-chika-bow-wow, but still... *stares at laptop for a good 20 seconds* 

On a different note, there was some epic fail in Founder's today. The psycho exroommate that-

Hang on...

Deep within the trials of the Founder's Seminar of Wonder, your hero's ears perked up at the sound of the harmful Psychoticus Exroommateus saying, "I wouldn't want an anarchy because then people would steal my stuff." Number one, filthy fucking hypocrite. Number two, logic = fail. Number three, no one would want anything out of that disturbing cave except her crazy pills, her money and MY FUCKING PHONE. I mean, I'm getting a new phone this weekend, but I'll still need to buy new minutes for it and shit, which is such a pain in the ass.

Also, did I mention that this psycho actually got someone ill enough to get them into a hospital? E.S. was hospitalized due to a non-swine flu that was stress induced. I had talked to the girl maybe the night before and she had said that Psychoticus Exroommateus had her so stressed out, had her boyfriend fighting with her all because aforementioned P.E. can't take a hint and quit stalking people who clearly don't want to be around her. They need to teach the "Don't Stalk People" lesson in kindergarten or something, because that's about where P.E.'s mental age is.

Life is still awesome though because, 1) I got a 100 on a WLD paper, 2) I'm getting my new phone this weekend and 3) Weiss can duplicate himself.

Poll #1476758 NaNoWriMo Topic
Open to: All, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 2

Which plot should I use for my NaNoWriMo?

If you answered "Fanfic," which one? 

Multi-tasking at the GSA. I'm listening to stuff and blogging. Everyone says hello!!! :D

So, today, me, Russia and Angelica have all given our testimonies to-

Wait, wrong format...

When you last left your epic hero, she was in a bind of binds. The magnificent fantastical princess BriKyo was recieving undue harassment from the hero's missing cell phone. Naturally, the hero was like, "Not cool." So she took her epic sweet sidekick Russia and her the dear Professor Angelica off to the bowels of the Residence Life Cave. Inside, the denizens were immensely supportive.

Also, at the secret Aikido meeting, aforementioned sidekick was physically struck and verbally taunted. She had a breakdown. Again, not. Fucking. Cool. (However, I was elected as Communications Officer. <3)

I got Loveless manga!!! Not all the ones I need yet, though. I also managed to check out the HOLY GRAIL OF SHAKESPEARE INTERPRETATIONS!!! Yes... The Kenneth Branagh directed-starred intpretation of "Hamlet." I had a "HOMGEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!" moment when I laid my pretty hands on it. It sits in my back, tickling at the back of my neck, going, "Just watch a few scenes right now... It won't hurt anyone..."

I'm soooo sleepy lately. I've also been on IMVU, just dicking around with people. I'm considering a social experiment concerning the color of shirts on there. Will keep you posted.